Friday, July 8, 2016

The calm before the… surgery

We haven’t posted in a while… we’ve been busy enjoying life with our family.  Who can blame us for that, right?  Ha!  Isn’t that what we’re all busy doing this summer?  Packing as much life into our days as possible?  I’ll admit that we’ve not filled all of our days with wonderful adventures.  We’ve had plenty where we don’t want to do much and we lounge around too long.  We’ve had some where Brandon spends too many hours studying for his NCLEX (still waiting for his ticket to test).  There were days when I sit at my desk much longer than I should and cut into “family time”… but hey, we all have those, too. 

On the plus side, we have had lots of days so far this season where we played outside.  We are helping the boys learn to ride their bikes.  We let them play in their pool and let Ellie play in her little pool, too (read: it’s really a little Rubbermaid container that is small enough that she can’t fall over in it).  We’ve had sparklers and campfires and many nights at the playground.  We've done the festival thing here and there (food trucks, parades, rides, etc.).  We’ve gone camping (once) and just returned from a great vacation with family.  Summer has been amazing so far.  So we have no complaints here.  Brandon finished school last month, we are trying our best to keep the boys on a schedule, Brandon is just starting a new career which will bring with it a totally new schedule for him and our family, we are looking forward to moving in the next month, I landed a new job within the company I have worked for since 2009, and Ellie… she’s learning and growing and proving that nothing is impossible for her.  We have a family reunion and our first Down syndrome association family picnic coming up soon, too!  Things are busy and crazy and exciting… a little stressful at times… but stressful in a good way, that’s for sure.

Ellie and I watching fireworks

This summer is good – dare I say GREAT!  But things are moving along quickly and I can’t believe that July is already here.  For so long, July has been off in the distance, lurking ahead of us… waiting around the corner.  We’ve been anxiously awaiting July because July brings hope of a new normal for us… but July also brings a day of sedated procedures for Ellie (next week) and another major surgery on the 26th. 

Ellie is absolutely no stranger to sedation or surgery, but she hasn’t been fully sedated for almost a year (last September she was sedated for an outpatient scoping procedure) and she hasn’t had surgery since we were in Boston in May of 2015.  The surgery she’ll have at the end of the month is intense.  They’ll harvest cartilage from her rib cage on the right side and they’ll use that cartilage to expand the ring of cartilage just below her voice box in her trachea.  This means they’ll cut the ring of cartilage in her throat at the front and back and use the rib cartilage as a spacer on the front and back side to make the ring larger.  See the image below.  Ellie will have the surgery that you can see in the bottom series of images where there are anterior and posterior cartilage grafts.  While this is a major surgery… it’s not “open your chest up and reconstruct the inner workings of your heart” kind of surgery.  It’s not “your heart and lungs will be stopped for four hours” kind of surgery.  I’m still scared and there are still serious risks involved (just like any surgery)… but compared to what Ellie’s been through in the past, she can totally handle this!  She's had a few bouts with bradycardia (slow heart rate) over the past week... only one night that was really concerning, though.  I normally wouldn't be too concerned about it, but of course, Ellie has to do these things just a week before getting sedated, so cardiology had her wear a Holter monitor for 48-hours.  She didn't have any episodes while on the monitor.  Instead, she saved those for the first night off the monitor.  I'm sure she'll be fine for sedation next week, her EKG looked okay this week.  With the type of repair she has with her heart, there is always a risk that as she grows, the tissue used to repair the septum won't transmit a signal as normal cardiac tissue would.  So there's a chance that as she grows, her heart rhythms may change.  We're keeping an eye on it and right now (other than a few nights where she threw us some curve balls), she seems just fine.  She just likes to keep us on our toes... turkey.  Cardiology said the results from her Holter looked just fine, though.



Back to the surgical plan:  her trach stoma is just below the surgical site here, and that should actually help her heal a little faster.  She will not need to be intubated for the procedure.  That’s a great thing.  Once she heals (however long that is), we’ll be able to start capping her trach and seeing how well she’s able to use her new airway.  Right now, capping is absolutely not an option.  Her current airway is too tiny to breathe in through.  We can use her speaking valve because she is strong enough to force air up and OUT of her airway, but she’s not strong enough to draw air IN through her upper airway now.  That’ll be something she’ll be able to do after surgery.  If that’s successful, she’ll have a sleep study and some other trials and such to do… and eventually, we can start to look at life beyond her trach.  What a thought, right?  We have no idea what this timeline looks like right now.  I’m hopeful that this could happen within a few months of surgery.  But there may be other things that we need to look at in this process (tonsils, etc.).  We’re taking it one step at a time, but this is a very big step, y’all.

And as much as I LOVE her Gtube (never thought I would ever say that I LOVE a feeding tube… but let me tell you, they’re amazing), it looks like we’ll need to get rid of that once we get rid of her trach, too.  And once that’s gone, we’ll have a baby that’s free of accessories – WHAT??  I mean, I’ll forever hold other babies and adjust them a certain way in my arms as not to accidentally pull their G tubes out (if I’ve held your baby/toddler in the past two years, I’ve done this to them… sorry, it’s a habit).  We’ll have to get rid of her G tube because Ellie has decided that it’s her new favorite thing to pull at and pull out.  Gross!  If we don’t keep her in a onesie, she’ll pull that sucker out several times in a day and hand it to me like she’s doing me a favor.  Not cool.  On the plus side, it’s created a learning opportunity for me to calmly teach our boys all about tubies and how they go in and what all I need to put them back in Ellie’s belly.  My boys know entirely too much about tubies and trachs.  In fact, they recently asked me for coloring pages where they could color their own Gtube buttons.  We live in a weird little subculture over here – don’t judge us.  On the plus side of this, we don’t really NEED her feeding tube anymore, either.  Ellie still gets one tube feed at night, but this is only because GI is really hesitant to pull all night feeds at once.  We have to take baby steps any time we want to make changes to her feeding regimen.  She’s taking all of her food by mouth (unless it’s the week we were on vacation and she decided that there was too much going on for her and she had no interest in eating or chewing or any of that business).  And thus… feeding tubes are my friends.  But just like any toddler who is able to eat by mouth, she will eventually eat when she’s hungry enough… I’m sure she’ll be fine without her tube.  I’ll just have to get over not having that amazing safety net that it has provided for so long… and cherish not having to give her medicines by mouth until we have to take it out.

Those are my thoughts as we march forward this month.  We have two friends that are also facing major surgeries next week… please keep Tillery (going in for surgery on her skull) and Aberdeen (another open heart surgery) in your prayers, too.  It’s a very big month for our friends.  We also have a friend who just gained her angel wings this past week.  Please pray for sweet Sofia’s family.  Her smile brightened our world and her momma was a constant source of strength in the RMH and she helped us navigate the world of trachs and ventilators.  This was a momma who (in the midst of spending years in the hospital with Sofia) secretly worked with the concierge team at Cincinnati Children’s to surprise families by buying them lunch from any local joint they chose.  What a wonderful surprise this was!  Chipotle in the middle of my work day during a crappy week in the hospital??  What a way to brighten someone’s day.  So… if you really want to pay it forward, call Best Upon Request at Cincinnati Children’s, offer to buy lunch for a family having a rough day.  I promise they’ll know of families having a rough day… and the Best Upon Request team does all of the running for you… they take care of all of it.  Do it in honor of Sofia and her sweet momma.  Do it because those parents will never forget the kindness of a stranger buying them lunch.  I promise!  That’s Hustling Kindness!!  If you want to do something a little smaller, buy a few meal cards from them and have them deliver them to a family in need.  Having a lunch ticket delivered from a stranger is awesome, too.  Let's keep Margaret's kindness going, y'all!

And on a really bright note, here are some pictures from our vacation last week.  I was having some serious anxiety about taking a trached baby to the beach.  Sand + water + an opening in your neck that leads straight to your lungs is certainly a recipe for disaster.  However, with months of preparation and the encouragement of family, friends, nurses, and the respiratory therapist with our supply company, we ventured out to the beach and the pool and we had a wildly successful vacation.  My family has been traveling to Fripp Island since 1983 (when my mom was pregnant with me).  Ellie’s first trip was in my belly when I was 30 weeks pregnant with her and this was her first opportunity to put her piggies in the sand.  We stayed in a house big enough for the 28 people in my family and my dad’s sister and her family traveled down at the same time to join us.  It was amazing and a much-needed break.  Can we go back yet?  Until next time, Fripp…


 Baby on the beach... trach covered, sand-free mat under her "pool"... she loved it
 And the pool - she was crazy about the pool, too
 The boys enjoying the waves with Daddy
Ellie petting a gator at the Nature Center.  
The boys got to hold snakes and visit the turtle day care.  Adorable!
One of my favorite pictures

And for reference, here is what we looked like last time we were in Fripp in 2014

And of course... we came back in time to celebrate July 4th.  We watched fireworks and took the boys camping for the first time.  Sleeping in a tent was just as I remember... felt just like sleeping on the ground, lol.  I'd do it again a thousand times - those little boys had so much fun!  Thank you all for following along with this ridiculously long post.  I'll keep you posted next week on Ellie's procedure and again at the end of the month when she goes in for her surgery.  Tracheoreconstruction: here we come!!

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